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The doubt monster

Img_8066_editedIt’s starting again. I can feel it creeping up on me. The doubt.
The darkness.
The anxiety.
Depression is a friend of mine. It comes and goes in my life.I know when it is here. I can sometimes fake it. Somtimes not.

I want to join in.
I feel like I’m standing at the edge of the playground and the other kids are playing and laughing and talking. They are all bright and lively. I am standing on the edge, heavy and dark and lifeless. I take one step ahead and then draw back with two steps. I’m further away than I was to begin with.

I KNOW the depression is waiting for me.
I hardly leave my house. I have a million excuses to stay here. Safe and shielded.
And it’s lonely in here.

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I'm a semi-retired mom living smack dab in the middle. Mom to @lasertron and @MattEHunt and new gramma to @aliceelfie. I attended #STS134 #NASAtweetup. I love to cook, hoard magazines and go places with my husband in his Cirrus122.

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  1. Cari

    Let’s get you out of that house then! Where should we go? What should we do? I got the new Pink Quickutz with Olivia and the Studio fonts! We can make Halloween cards! Or we can go to the Gretna Scrapbook store at the outlet mall, they have fun stuff! You let me know!

    ps…Are those Nan Baker’s Halloween pretties you are showing off? Love Her!

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